This isn't going to be like last live
stream. I'm just waiting for people to
actually be here to start talking.
I don't know how to navigate this.
Does anyone know if this saves?
Is it just live and then it's gone or
does it save?
Because if it just is up, then I'll
start talking. But if it's not, then I
want to wait till people are actually
here.
Does anyone know if the live stream
saves? No. Okay, whatever. I guess I'll
just start talking anyways.
So,
I
don't know what to do anymore.
I don't know how to get people
to
stop all this. I know
I know there are people with a lot more
sway than I have that can end all this
just like that.
And I know that they want to. So I don't
understand why they don't.
It's hard not to feel like
there are people that are not
doing what they can,
that
they could do so much more than I could,
so much more easily,
and they just choose not to. And it's
hard to not feel some kind of
bitterness
because of it.
I don't want to feel that way. I know
that they care, which is a lot more than
I can say about a lot of other people,
but
I don't
know why they don't care enough to do
anything about it because they could
change it.
I um
I would really appreciate it if they did
something
and that's why I'm streaming because I
don't know how else to [\h__\h]
It seems like I'm yelling into the void.
I don't want to be I don't want to be
doing this anymore.
I never really wanted to in the first
place. I felt like it was the only thing
I could control, the only way I could do
something to
help anyone, to change anything. and was
never just about him.
It was about the community,
a lot of problems that I saw in it and a
lot of things I wanted to fix,
but I'm not going to be able to do any
of that. Um,
so now I just want
to fix the one thing that I'm now
completely tied to without
anything I can do about it.
I don't
I don't know why people think that any
of what he does is all right.
I
I don't understand why even if you think
that all of the weird inappropriateness,
all of the
things that just shouldn't have happened
when it comes to him with so many
different minors. Even if you think
that's all all right, I don't understand
how you can then just pretend the racism
doesn't exist. Like, there's so many
layers to all of this.
There's so many different things going
on.
So many things came out after I already
thought this was insane.
I, you know, I've been on Fandone for
two years and
back then it was
it was just
him and
his two VAS that he was with
and the racist stuff
and not all of it that we know now,
not the others. that we know now, not
the other details that we know now.
And I didn't
People act like I made those up that I
found them, but I'm not a researcher. I
only spoke on what I knew about already.
The things I posted are things that I
already knew until people brought more
things to my attention and I put those
out, too.
I didn't stalk anyone.
I found
I was given things
by people that found things.
And the things I already knew, I posted.
It doesn't matter. It doesn't It
shouldn't matter.
All this information is damning either
way for him. Uh if if you think that
it's a problem that someone went through
the effort to document things
and not the fact that the things
documented are as they are,
then I don't know what to say to you.
I don't know.
I know I'm not speaking in specifics. I
don't really know what else to do.
This isn't to go over everything. This
isn't to rehash anything.
This is to try to get the people
that I know care and I know know and I
know have a lot more power on all this
than I do to do anything because I
because I know I'm tired and I know I
can't keep doing this and I know that
there are people that have never even
spoken publicly on all this that are
exhausted. ed by it because they are
affected by it too in ways that I am not
at liberty to explain cuz it's not me. I
can't I can't keep holding all the
information and having to keep quiet
about it because it would hurt someone
because it's
I I don't know what to say. I don't
know.
I just want
the people that can help to help because
right now he's coming back feeling
comfortable like he can just come back
And it bothers me. I know the things are
getting done behind the scenes
and I know if you're one of the people
I've been talking to right now that you
know what's been going on
that you know things are getting done
behind the scenes. But I'm
behind the scenes doesn't
it doesn't feel real enough to me
anymore.
I want
to stop having debates with people on if
any of this is all right.
I want it to just be over.
So,
I don't know if I don't know if this is
going to be saved. I don't know if it's
only live for the people who are seeing
it and then it's gone.
But I hope that
one of the people I'm talking to is at
least here or can see this at some
point. I feel inclined enough to do more
than
talk to people privately or maybe even
make a tweet because this is
it's gone. It's gone.
I'm not trying. I'm not trying to look
like I'm crying. I'm I know people are
analyzing everything I do. I just I have
a hard time not
taking a moment to think about my words.
I'm not pausing to
hold back tears or any way you want to
spin it. I'm just thinking. I want to be
clear.
I don't know.
Anyways,
uh if this is not going to stay up, then
I guess out of like the dozen people
that have been in this live stream, I
hope one of you was one of those people.
And if not, I guess that's it. This was
another bust.