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so doc I've been sick for a while now I

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so doc I've been sick for a while now I
 

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so doc I've been sick for a while now I
get all sorts of chest pain and fever

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get all sorts of chest pain and fever
 

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get all sorts of chest pain and fever
and running noses can you do anything

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and running noses can you do anything
 

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and running noses can you do anything
about

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about
 

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about
that uh KP and I have these weird dreams

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that uh KP and I have these weird dreams
 

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that uh KP and I have these weird dreams
that wake me up in the middle of the

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that wake me up in the middle of the
 

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that wake me up in the middle of the
night celesy knows I'm losing a lot of

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night celesy knows I'm losing a lot of
 

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night celesy knows I'm losing a lot of
sleep anyway KP I and then I get all

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sleep anyway KP I and then I get all
 

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sleep anyway KP I and then I get all
these weird stomach aches all the time

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these weird stomach aches all the time
 

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these weird stomach aches all the time
and I feel like I'm going to throw up at

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and I feel like I'm going to throw up at
 

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and I feel like I'm going to throw up at
random points of the day KP I am more

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random points of the day KP I am more
 

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random points of the day KP I am more
than willing to help you with any

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than willing to help you with any
 

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than willing to help you with any
troubles that may be on your mind but

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troubles that may be on your mind but
 

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troubles that may be on your mind but
you need to realize that I am not a

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you need to realize that I am not a
 

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you need to realize that I am not a
medical doctor just a psychologist I

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medical doctor just a psychologist I
 

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medical doctor just a psychologist I
cannot help you with the physical

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cannot help you with the physical
 

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cannot help you with the physical
symptoms of whatever ails you though I

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symptoms of whatever ails you though I
 

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symptoms of whatever ails you though I
can certainly recommend a few ponies and

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can certainly recommend a few ponies and
 

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can certainly recommend a few ponies and
perhaps even a zebra who can my

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perhaps even a zebra who can my
 

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perhaps even a zebra who can my
apologies oh right they really should

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apologies oh right they really should
 

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apologies oh right they really should
make that more clear in the advertising

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make that more clear in the advertising
 

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make that more clear in the advertising
campaigns well anyway I've gotten really

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campaigns well anyway I've gotten really
 

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campaigns well anyway I've gotten really
seriously sick for the first time in

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seriously sick for the first time in
 

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seriously sick for the first time in
life about early August of this year it

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life about early August of this year it
 

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life about early August of this year it
was one of the scariest experiences I

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was one of the scariest experiences I
 

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was one of the scariest experiences I
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ever went through because For the first
 

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ever went through because For the first
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time in my life I didn't feel like
 

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time in my life I didn't feel like
myself I'm usually a relatively happy

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myself I'm usually a relatively happy
 

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myself I'm usually a relatively happy
person I keep myself to entertained and

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person I keep myself to entertained and
 

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person I keep myself to entertained and
have a fun time enjoying life but during

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have a fun time enjoying life but during
 

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have a fun time enjoying life but during
this period I felt like a part of myself

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this period I felt like a part of myself
 

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this period I felt like a part of myself
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was missing I would get all these weird
 

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was missing I would get all these weird
symptoms like fevers and stomach pain my

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symptoms like fevers and stomach pain my
 

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symptoms like fevers and stomach pain my
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parents didn't know what was wrong with
 

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parents didn't know what was wrong with
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me at first they thought I was just
 

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me at first they thought I was just
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depressed or it was just nervous or
 

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depressed or it was just nervous or
something like that but as time went on

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something like that but as time went on
 

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something like that but as time went on
and I showed no signs of improvement it

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and I showed no signs of improvement it
 

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and I showed no signs of improvement it
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occurred to them that something more
 

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occurred to them that something more
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serious was in the works so what did you
 

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serious was in the works so what did you
and your family do lots of doctors

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and your family do lots of doctors
 

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and your family do lots of doctors
medication and time was the biggest

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medication and time was the biggest
 

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medication and time was the biggest
Factor really I still don't feel 100%

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Factor really I still don't feel 100%
 

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Factor really I still don't feel 100%
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but I'm getting better every day it's so
 

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but I'm getting better every day it's so
demanding and hard to have to Sly rely

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demanding and hard to have to Sly rely
 

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demanding and hard to have to Sly rely
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on other people for everything to feel
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like you're not complete or a whole
 

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like you're not complete or a whole
person I don't know maybe I'm just

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person I don't know maybe I'm just
 

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person I don't know maybe I'm just
rambling it's helpful to talk about

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rambling it's helpful to talk about
 

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rambling it's helpful to talk about
feelings of deep distress KP even if

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feelings of deep distress KP even if
 

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feelings of deep distress KP even if
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there may not be an available answer it
 

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there may not be an available answer it
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is wonderful to hear that you're
 

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is wonderful to hear that you're
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recovering and I'm sure many of us are
 

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recovering and I'm sure many of us are
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more than willing to wait until you feel
 

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more than willing to wait until you feel
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ready to take part in YouTube again and
 

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ready to take part in YouTube again and
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I can certainly relate to having so much
 

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I can certainly relate to having so much
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stress that you actually develop
 

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stress that you actually develop
physical ailments to go along with it I

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physical ailments to go along with it I
 

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physical ailments to go along with it I
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can remember way back in mid 20104 when
 

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can remember way back in mid 20104 when
my channel had been taken down without

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my channel had been taken down without
 

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my channel had been taken down without
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warning and no immediate way of bringing
 

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warning and no immediate way of bringing
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it back I felt devastated that
 

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it back I felt devastated that
everything I had accomplished on YouTube

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everything I had accomplished on YouTube
 

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everything I had accomplished on YouTube
all the work I had put in over the

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all the work I had put in over the
 

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all the work I had put in over the
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course of a year was just gone
 

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course of a year was just gone
forever for two whole days I was a shell

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forever for two whole days I was a shell
 

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forever for two whole days I was a shell
of my former self not knowing what to do

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of my former self not knowing what to do
 

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of my former self not knowing what to do
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though I imagine things were a great
 

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though I imagine things were a great
deal worse for you KP oh yes for months

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deal worse for you KP oh yes for months
 

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deal worse for you KP oh yes for months
I didn't feel like myself I could barely

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I didn't feel like myself I could barely
 

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I didn't feel like myself I could barely
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function doing day-to-day activities and
 

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function doing day-to-day activities and
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always needed help to do what I needed
 

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always needed help to do what I needed
my parents were patient and took over my

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my parents were patient and took over my
 

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my parents were patient and took over my
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normal responsibilities like driving
 

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normal responsibilities like driving
feeding me making sure I took my

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feeding me making sure I took my
 

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feeding me making sure I took my
medication but I was in a place I never

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medication but I was in a place I never
 

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medication but I was in a place I never
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expected to be I think many people see
 

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expected to be I think many people see
me as or let's say my internet Persona

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me as or let's say my internet Persona
 

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me as or let's say my internet Persona
as a bubbly fun fan girl and I forget

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as a bubbly fun fan girl and I forget
 

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as a bubbly fun fan girl and I forget
that life and events like this happen to

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that life and events like this happen to
 

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that life and events like this happen to
everyone I'm not as Invincible as I

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everyone I'm not as Invincible as I
 

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everyone I'm not as Invincible as I
thought I was I'm just a person and to

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thought I was I'm just a person and to
 

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thought I was I'm just a person and to
be living in a reality where nothing

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be living in a reality where nothing
 

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be living in a reality where nothing
seems to be improving where it's hard to

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seems to be improving where it's hard to
 

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seems to be improving where it's hard to
find happiness and you constantly feel

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find happiness and you constantly feel
 

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find happiness and you constantly feel
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like you're going to get sick at any
 

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like you're going to get sick at any
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moment was really hard for me to accept
 

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moment was really hard for me to accept
I didn't understand it and why this

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I didn't understand it and why this
 

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I didn't understand it and why this
happened to me I kept on going back

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happened to me I kept on going back
 

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happened to me I kept on going back
trying to see if I'd done things a

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trying to see if I'd done things a
 

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trying to see if I'd done things a
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certain way maybe I could have avoided
 

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certain way maybe I could have avoided
all this the other part of me tried to

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all this the other part of me tried to
 

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all this the other part of me tried to
find meaning in my experience at least

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find meaning in my experience at least
 

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find meaning in my experience at least
one good thing that came from all this

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one good thing that came from all this
 

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one good thing that came from all this
the light at the end of the tunnel is

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the light at the end of the tunnel is
 

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the light at the end of the tunnel is
something hard to see when someone goes

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something hard to see when someone goes
 

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something hard to see when someone goes
through something like this you know yes

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through something like this you know yes
 

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through something like this you know yes
I know trying to understand everything

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I know trying to understand everything
 

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I know trying to understand everything
about why we undergo a tremendous trial

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about why we undergo a tremendous trial
 

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about why we undergo a tremendous trial
can often just add to the despair

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can often just add to the despair
 

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can often just add to the despair
because we really can't see all ends in

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because we really can't see all ends in
 

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because we really can't see all ends in
life focusing on how much you could have

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life focusing on how much you could have
 

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life focusing on how much you could have
done things differently can help us to

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done things differently can help us to
 

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done things differently can help us to
grow but there really is so much we can

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grow but there really is so much we can
 

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grow but there really is so much we can
learn before that too will just add to

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learn before that too will just add to
 

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learn before that too will just add to
the despair in those moments of deep

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the despair in those moments of deep
 

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the despair in those moments of deep
sadness when all we can think to do is

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sadness when all we can think to do is
 

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sadness when all we can think to do is
question our very purpose in life there

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question our very purpose in life there
 

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question our very purpose in life there
is often a sincere desire to shut

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is often a sincere desire to shut
 

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is often a sincere desire to shut
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yourself off from the world in the hopes
 

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yourself off from the world in the hopes
you will avoid any further trials and

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you will avoid any further trials and
 

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you will avoid any further trials and
begin to find some measure of clarity

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begin to find some measure of clarity
 

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begin to find some measure of clarity
this might help for a very short while

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this might help for a very short while
 

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this might help for a very short while
give you some time to reflect however I

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give you some time to reflect however I
 

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give you some time to reflect however I
would hope that you would not push away

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would hope that you would not push away
 

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would hope that you would not push away
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those trustworthy individuals who
 

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those trustworthy individuals who
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genuinely wish to see you recover simply
 

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genuinely wish to see you recover simply
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because you feel the need to be alone
 

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because you feel the need to be alone
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even when our instincts tell us that we
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need to do all in our power to stay in
 

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need to do all in our power to stay in
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that safe space until we can recover it
 

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that safe space until we can recover it
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is important for us to remember even in
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those moments of deepest despair that we
 

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those moments of deepest despair that we
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cannot grow as individuals if we refuse
 

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cannot grow as individuals if we refuse
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to ever set foot outside of our comfort
 

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to ever set foot outside of our comfort
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zones ever again naturally I wouldn't
 

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zones ever again naturally I wouldn't
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want you to get back to how things used
 

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want you to get back to how things used
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to be right from the start there are
 

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to be right from the start there are
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good reasons as to why our instincts
 

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good reasons as to why our instincts
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tell us to find a safe space in the
 

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tell us to find a safe space in the
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first place after all but I would
 

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first place after all but I would
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encourage you to take a few baby steps
 

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encourage you to take a few baby steps
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as it were working yourself towards a
 

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as it were working yourself towards a
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goal outside of your comfort zone again
 

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goal outside of your comfort zone again
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faltering running into unexpected
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struggles along the way seek comfort
 

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struggles along the way seek comfort
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from those who have come before you
 

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from those who have come before you
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because no matter how dark and dreary
 

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because no matter how dark and dreary
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your circumstances may seem there's
 

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your circumstances may seem there's
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always someone else you can learn from
 

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always someone else you can learn from
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and find confidence to follow in a
 

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and find confidence to follow in a
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similar path and perhaps one day you too
 

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similar path and perhaps one day you too
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can Inspire others to follow in your
 

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can Inspire others to follow in your
path does any of this make sense to you

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path does any of this make sense to you
 

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path does any of this make sense to you
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KP it's a lot to take in but yes it's
 

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KP it's a lot to take in but yes it's
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just when you feel things aren't getting
 

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just when you feel things aren't getting
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better any advice that comes seems to
 

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better any advice that comes seems to
fall in DEA ears not that it's not good

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fall in DEA ears not that it's not good
 

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fall in DEA ears not that it's not good
advice but it's hard to understand these

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advice but it's hard to understand these
 

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advice but it's hard to understand these
things when you're in such a bad place

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things when you're in such a bad place
 

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things when you're in such a bad place
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both physically and mentally it was
 

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both physically and mentally it was
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honestly hard to find comfort in these
 

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honestly hard to find comfort in these
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days you just feel so numb to the world
 

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days you just feel so numb to the world
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and nothing seems like it will get
 

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and nothing seems like it will get
better I guess my point is sometimes you

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better I guess my point is sometimes you
 

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better I guess my point is sometimes you
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just got to keep on fighting and getting
 

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just got to keep on fighting and getting
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through one day at a time because it
 

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through one day at a time because it
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will get better even though it doesn't
 

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will get better even though it doesn't
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seem like it it took me for example
 

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seem like it it took me for example
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months medication and a whole other
 

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months medication and a whole other
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things just to feel like I had a bit of
 

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things just to feel like I had a bit of
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myself back again but it happened it
 

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myself back again but it happened it
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just took time I suppose it's very much
 

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just took time I suppose it's very much
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like that old saying Time Heals all
 

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like that old saying Time Heals all
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wounds I don't know if I believe that
 

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wounds I don't know if I believe that
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time can heal everything but there are
 

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time can heal everything but there are
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many cases where time is really the only
 

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many cases where time is really the only
cure for what ails you so if we can

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cure for what ails you so if we can
 

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cure for what ails you so if we can
learn patience and persistence perhaps

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learn patience and persistence perhaps
 

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learn patience and persistence perhaps
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even our darkest days can be
 

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even our darkest days can be
overcome I sincerely hope you will find

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overcome I sincerely hope you will find
 

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overcome I sincerely hope you will find
a way to lift your spirits again KP and

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a way to lift your spirits again KP and
 

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a way to lift your spirits again KP and
when you're ready become an even better

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when you're ready become an even better
 

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when you're ready become an even better
Pony than you've ever been

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Pony than you've ever been
 

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Pony than you've ever been
before until then my office is always

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before until then my office is always
 

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before until then my office is always
open as I'm sure many others out there

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open as I'm sure many others out there
 

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open as I'm sure many others out there
are willing to provide a listening year

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are willing to provide a listening year
 

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are willing to provide a listening year
should you have need of one talking

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should you have need of one talking
 

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should you have need of one talking
always does help lately I appreciate it

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always does help lately I appreciate it
 

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always does help lately I appreciate it
glad to be of service Miss possible take

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glad to be of service Miss possible take
 

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glad to be of service Miss possible take
care and have

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hope it's good to be

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helping we'll be selling charity Merch

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helping we'll be selling charity Merch
 

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helping we'll be selling charity Merch
this convention season and not dish

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this convention season and not dish
 

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this convention season and not dish
t-shirts like before we have show

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t-shirts like before we have show
 

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t-shirts like before we have show
accurate plushies keychains necklaces

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accurate plushies keychains necklaces
 

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accurate plushies keychains necklaces
body pillows and ioc wait all going into

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body pillows and ioc wait all going into
 

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body pillows and ioc wait all going into
TRC or the trauma Recovery Center which

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TRC or the trauma Recovery Center which
 

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TRC or the trauma Recovery Center which
is a UK group that focuses on helping

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is a UK group that focuses on helping
 

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is a UK group that focuses on helping
children from abusive homes bullying and

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children from abusive homes bullying and
 

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children from abusive homes bullying and
a whole bunch of other issues get the

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a whole bunch of other issues get the
 

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a whole bunch of other issues get the
help they need more info on their

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help they need more info on their
 

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help they need more info on their
website so if you want to buy some stuff

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website so if you want to buy some stuff
 

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website so if you want to buy some stuff
please check out this tea public store

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please check out this tea public store
 

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please check out this tea public store
for new and old shirt designs we'll also

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for new and old shirt designs we'll also
 

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for new and old shirt designs we'll also
be doing convention store pickups if

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be doing convention store pickups if
 

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be doing convention store pickups if
you're going to any of these cons and

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you're going to any of these cons and
 

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you're going to any of these cons and
would like to pick up your order in

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would like to pick up your order in
 

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would like to pick up your order in
person you can fill up this form here

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person you can fill up this form here
 

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person you can fill up this form here
note that we only have some small KP

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note that we only have some small KP
 

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note that we only have some small KP
items at the actual conventions so we

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items at the actual conventions so we
 

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items at the actual conventions so we
might not have exactly what you want so

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might not have exactly what you want so
 

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might not have exactly what you want so
I recommend pre-ordering to make sure

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I recommend pre-ordering to make sure
 

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I recommend pre-ordering to make sure
that whatever you want is in stock and

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that whatever you want is in stock and
 

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that whatever you want is in stock and
all that good stuff and ready just for

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all that good stuff and ready just for
 

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all that good stuff and ready just for
you